CHALLENGE

Oh my God!!!! Once again.. I'm so unsatisfied with my acting just now. I feel just like an idiot. I dont even have an idea just like my friends. They are a good actor.. How about me?? I admit that i am not going to be an actor. However I am going to do the best as i can during the real role play presentation. Miss Hasnaa made such that face once again to me and i am so..... arghhhhhh. I dont know what i want to say. The duration of acting is ok.but my acting is exactly like a wood. People do not even enjoy my acting. People should call me as a robot. I walk like a robot and i do everything just like a robot. I just read the script that i made before.

The rest of my friends can do it spontanuosly.. Why can't i be like them?? I want the greatest score for my role play presentation. It'll be more easier for me to fly.. Assignments still drive me crazy. I have a lot of things to do in my life. I dont even have single time to enjoy my life. I want to watch movies, buy new clothes and many more. But, how can i do it. My lecturers keep giving us an assignments. Why? We also need some time to rest. INTEC is my first and last university in Malaysia. So this is going to be the greatest memory for me when i was there. Then i'll realise that all of this is just like a drop of water from sea. My russian language lecturer told us that our life there is going to be harder.Honestly, i can't imagine it. What am i going to face there. Is there any discriminations towards the foreigners? Miss Anastacia said, Russia is just like the other country. Whenever you go, there is a discriminations. But Russia is not like the other european country. The native is not going to treat us just like people who live in London or United States. We are not going to be treated like that. We can't even go out at night. Drunk man may do dangerous things towards us. So, for better safety we are not allowed to go out at night. I am guessing, perhaps i am just going to sleep for 4 hours everyday when i was there. If i was placed at Moscow Medical Academy, it is going to be more difficult. Please my sponsorships do not place me at MMA.. Niezhniey Novgorad and Volgograd are better than MMA, perhaps.. It's the same. I can still visit the other places in Russia during holidays. I can go to Saint Petersburg, Mockva and many more... During the long holiday, i can go to europe.. Paris, Milan, Italy, German, United Kingdom and many more. I'll be there for 6 years. I hope there is enough time for me to pay a visit to each european country. I love europe. It's my ambition to further my studies abroad since i was 12. Actually, i wish to further my studies at United Kingdom. But, what can i do. God had decided it for me. Russia. I'm so grateful. It is quite interesting to study there. Ya..